Years ago, I only had one response to impending change...restlessness. The dictionary defines it as "the inability to relax as a result of anxiety" and I certainly knew how to demonstrate it: obsessive cleaning of unseen places, irrational ideas for excursions, spontaneous shopping sprees, and a total inability to sit on any piece of furniture, no matter how comfortable. Change made me nervous. The unknown can feel threatening or worse to someone who has control issues.
But as I have come to know the Lord, I have grown to understand that all of God's ways for my life are for good and are birthed out of His love. Trust in His character stifles anxiety and embracing His love casts out the fear. As I sensed the Lord was about to bring "change" into my life, though I didn't know what it was, I felt the power of Eli's words to Samuel in 1 Samuel 3:9 (emphasis mine), "Go, lie down; and it shall be, if He calls you, that YOU MUST say, 'Speak Lord, for Your servant hears.'" The Lord did speak to me, very clearly and repeatedly.
Last Tuesday morning, on the day we were to start the women's Bible study for the year, I shared what the Lord put on my heart for the women in our church, and then announced how the Lord has led me to step away from the majority of ministry involvement. Many women were unable to attend the study and within one week, there have been misunderstandings and many questions. I am posting a link to the message here to try and help communicate to those who I haven't been able to speak with directly or may have their own questions.
Click here then on the message from 9/10/13 entitled Psalm 34:10
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. (Matt. 11:28-29)
